danas je moj svetac, to jest danas mi je rođendan.
osim toga i mlad je mesec i brojke su lepo simetrične.

hvala svima koji su se setili. ♥



u tom smislu, odosmo!

thank you all for lovely birthday wishes. enjoy life! ♥

prvo su naš pržile sunčene erupcije i magnetne kugle, a za to vreme se prikrala zima, ledeniom kandžama. danaas neko reče, uf, super, temperatura je malo normalnija. a moja drugarica i ja u glas, temperatura nije normalna dok ne dođe do trijes. tako da ledene kandže, slažem se, jadna metafora, al jesu. vise sa svakog oluka, sa svake fasade. u mom potkrovlju curi gde nikad nije, doduše ni ovakav sneg nikad nije.

ja se ne sećam da sam doživela -24C ever. dal je bio ovakav sneg u detinjstvu nemam pojma ni to, al ovakva atmosfera definitivno nije bila.

u malom mi se životu kontuzovala desnica, ruko zelena jabuko, jer sam cimala desetine litara vode u flašama kad je nismo imali u slavinama par dana. pre toga već nismo imali grejanja i opet vode i malo struje. i još sneg pritisnuo, sloj na sloj sa slojem na sloj leda, baš kao i debeli kaputi i džemperi, svaki dan cimaš 16 tona na vratu. il u rukama. il oba. i onda obično negde pukne, još uvek važi 3D.

al ljudi... ljudi, ljudi su se unakazili. tuga.. taksista nijedan ne jebe da stane ni na zeleno na pešačkom prelazu. posle će da kaže, jebiga, nisam mogao da ukočim, il šta? u samoposluzi gužva ko pred novu godinu, puna kolica i svi reže. jedan me napao da sam se ubacila u red i krenuo odma da kune, pašćeš na led (red/led), bog će te kazniti. kako da mu kažem da moj bog ne kažnjava, kad mi je i bez toga već rekao ne seri? onda napadne i jednu klinku i ispadne budala, jer mu se i klinka usprotivila pošto je on preko reda, al ona je najbolje, smehom. kaže mala, niko me nije obavestio da je smak sveta. i vidim da ima još neko normalan. ali uglavnom face koje se mogu videti su reptili. ne da obraćam pažnju, al tako dok čekam apokaliptični red na kasi sa šakom stvarčica za 4 soma, gledam u fizionomije. how did i fucking get here?

mislim se, kad otopli i popusti, biće erupcija besa, a opet, nadam se da ćemo radije da poletimo nego da sagorimo... oh my... intenzivno.

ima pravo adamus, ova godina je kao alisa u zemlji čuda. a tek je jebeni februar. koje li su još mogućčnosti?

neću da kažem, ima i lepih stvari, kao ovaj zimski ukras. il pet slobodnih dana plus dva na ukočenu desnicu.



so this is belgrade winter. it looks nice, but it's dense and almost everybody is tense (dense/tense). sometimes something breaks. like pipes, like bones, like nerves, or muscles, or cords around, like in my case. so now i am half functional, i chose to stay at home and observe how everything falls apart, alltogether with ice blocks over our heads. plus leaking...

looking at the people one can see fear and every lack of compassion or any kind of consciousness. so sad. like if life was a battle at least, but more like a war, survival instead of living and enjoying. is it just this cold, this snow and ice, solar flares? fear. eek.

when snow and ice melts it's going to be even more water around. water dragon, eh? shall we erupt in rage, or just fly? choose flying.

adamus was right, this year is going to be like alice in the wonderland. at it's just february, so... enjoy the ride. what else is possible?

dakle sneg je u količinama. ne samo kod nas kontinentalnih, nego i kod ovih primorskih. uf.

sad... ja ne volim zimu, nikako ne volim sneg jer on znači hladnoću i bljuzgu, al ima nešto u snegu... tišina. u snegu se krije tišina kakva nikad nije kad je lepo vreme pa sve vri od života. sneg ćuti i sve oko njega ćuti, čak i u gradu, čak iako svi psuju gradske servise i boga i vreme mu, sneg upija čudesno. i mnogo. jer mnogo je snega.

ovako je izgledala planeta odozgo, juče. belo je sneg, žuto je led. ujebote.



a ovako izgleda tašmajdan večeras. nigde nikog, sama tišina. divota.

i kad bolje razmislim, sva sreća da je hladno, inače bi usijanje bilo neizdržljivo. mda.



i generally dislike winter and snow and these days there's a lot of both. ok, i know, traffic is in collapse, heating is not working that good, now and then very old pipes break at this temperature, so no water, but still... there is something in the snow. silence. even in the city silence prevails. priceless.

sometimes i think that it's much better like this, in cold, otherwise general heat would be unbearable with all these changes... so, what else is possible?

in the meanwhile, enjoy the silence.

so it's official, new chinese year started and it's dragon one! how does this get any better than this? 2012, the one and only, hugging dragon. or being swept by a dragon's tail? whatever. it's good. all is good. all is well, you know that.

i am back home, back to serbia and i don't feel very thrilled about it. it's darker, denser, heavier then when we left, or have i changed? or both? whatever.

so let's just celebrate new year for the time being, not thinking of how it will be, what will happen and who's gonna (beep) whom... just ride the wave where it takes you. if you so choose.

and... today's dragon in his glory.



pic: Katsushika Hokusai, Dragon ascending Mount Fuji from 'One Hundred Views of Mount Fuji'
NASA/SDO and the AIA Consortium/Edited by J. Majo

blago nama što slavimo sve božiće i sve nove godine. blago nama što slavimo život.

baš danas, moj omiljeni adamus dade ovu predikciju. ko ne zna engleski, u dve reči, rock'n'roll godina je pred nama. yes!

hristos se rodi. ♥

‎"I would say that 2012 is the year of the rocket. Yes, the rocket, because with all of this energy, you can launch your potentials. You can launch yourself. All of this energy that’s here is going to provide what you need, all of the resources, in 2012.

It’s like a magic energy, because you don’t need to struggle with it. You don’t need to work hard with it. This energy is very, very efficient. Therefore, it’s going to work a bit different than the energies that you’re used to from the past.

This energy is here and it responds very immediately to what you are choosing. Ah! So that brings up the question, “What should I choose?” Ah, that’s up to you, my dear friends. It’s up to you, but choose without fear. Choose without holding back. Choose without judgment. Choose as a creator, knowing that this energy is going to launch you, to launch whatever you choose to do – your projects, your ideas, your self-development, your rejuvenation, your rebalancing, whatever it is. And then after you make that choice in this Year of the Rocket, with this beautiful energy, then let it go to work. Let it go to work."

Adamus, "2012: Deliverance", January 2012''



lucky us that celebrate two christmas_es, two new year_s, lucky us that celebrate life!

adamus' prediction for this year, never mind if you disbelieve predictions, let's rock and roll this year!

all is well in all of creation, so don't stop the celebration!

this is from lee harris and he knows what he talks about. believe you me. and lee.

srećna nam nova godinica.

hvala bogu da je najzad došla 2012. tolko je čekam. računam, biće bajna i šarena i cvetna.

nemoj da se neko loži da će biti smak sveta, božemeoprosti. ako i bude, biće smak ovakvog koji je do sad bio, da bi se napravilo mesta za novi. jedva čekam, baš da vam kažem. ko što sam jedva dočekala da dođe ova godina, zbog koje sam se rodila, ovo vreme, zbog koga sam se rodila.

prvi put sam dočekala novu godinu na moru. posle jebenih pola veka, ne znam šta sam tolko čekala. malteška nova godina je skromna u našem seocetu, jedan gost i nas troje domaćina, dobro vino, večericu kuvao šković, tortu umesio saher, gvozden otvarao šampanjac, a pedro se smejao svojim belim zubima.

sijajte, radujte se, nema veze šta nam se u životima dešava, broji se samo to da smo živi i dok je tako, sve je promenljivo, ko da niste znali? i to promenljivo zavisi samo od nas, poštovani majstori kreacije, sami crtamo, sami ostvarujemo, uvek smo i samo sami odgovorni za sve što nam se dešava. ko da niste znali...

ovo je od gandalfa.

gandalf is back!



so, master creators, happy 2012. that we have been waiting for so long, for which we came into this existence. i can hardly wait to see new earth, new world, new everything.

my first new year by the sea. in our little village in malta we spent new year's eve in modest manner, goran was cooking, saher made a cake, gvozden opened champagne, pedro was smiling a lot with his bright smile and me... i was just beautiful. how does it get any better than this?

shine, enjoy, rejoice! all is well in all of creation, let's have more celebration!

celebration, eh? sure. celebrate whatever and whenever you grab a chance. just like us.

merry christmas everyone! enjoy life.

zima. i jeste zima, ladno bre. i kako dolikuje, opet pominjem prirodne pojave, danas najkraći dan. za uživati u lenstvovanju. ahem. jedino ako ljudski rod ne uživa u lenstvovanju, zimi smo najaktivniji, škola, pozorišna sezona, rintanje, sve mimo prirode. lenji smo leti, vrućina...

kad se osvrnem na prošli zimski solsticij, vidim... mnogo se promenilo. na prvi pogled ne izgleda da je tako, al na drugi, a tek na unutrašnji pogled, da ne kažem na pogled ka unutra... sve je drugačije.

spolja posmatrano, neki su se rodili, neki su prešli s druge strane vela, neki su otputovali, neki su se naljutili, neki su prišli, a neki se razišli. vreme promena. i suptilnih i cunami obojadisanih. i kao što mi lepo kažemo, ovo je vreme najbolje.

mene nije uhvatila novogodišnja nervoza. imam si nekih prečih događaja pre i od nove godine, prvu reprizu u subotu, pakovanje u nedelju, let u ponedeljak. izgledno je da ću ove sezone izbeći gužvu u samoposluzi i ekstra dekoraciju kuće, idem na more i nadam se odmoru dok ne prođu sve nove godine i svi božići i hanuke i šta sve još ima...

lepo se kaže u donjem linku. linearno vreme nestaje, pazite šta mislite jer what you think, you will get. slično tome se kaže i u našoj predstavi, vreme koje postoji samo u našem univerzumu, raspada se i to mu daje veliko ubrzanje...

da spavamo u najdužu noć, pa ćemo posle da sviramo rokenrol. a u to će i nova zemlja, nova godina, nova era. novi mi.






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i like to mention these events like solstice, full moon, eclipses... i'm kinda pagan oriented? might be, living with nature and acknowledging her is what i like to do. it's nice to breath with gaia.

so this winter solstice for us north from the line, i tried to remember how and who i was last winter and i see... so much changed. on subtle and not_so_subtle level. it's a bit different on the outside, but much has changed inside. not that it's other me, but it is. other, or another me. and i enjoy her very much and welcome her, because she's the one i've been waiting for.

this year i don't have much time to care about holiday season, food, presents, decorations. all of it i'm gonna miss with no regret, since i travel to mediterranean island to spend some time relaxing, enjoying the wind, waves and two gentlemen of mine

this is the best of times, as we like to say, waste it not, but enjoy, relax, embrace the changes that are unfolding. enjoy the time that is collapsing and new era emerging, enjoy your new year, new dna, new body, new you.

let me sleep it's christmas time, eddie would say... and later we shall play rock'n'roll, says me. what else is possible?

all is well in all of creation, so don't miss the celebration!

excuse my french. but really.

kupovala sam karte za neke koncerte pearl jam sledećeg leta u evropi. what a freaking nightmare. pretprodaja je pukla posle ciglo 20 minuta, na blam i 10 kluba i servisa za dilovanje. ondak smo sa svim smrtnicima kupovali na regularnoj prodaji. general sale. pošto sam čekala samo amsterdam, nisam kidisala na skandinaviju i ostala mesta, al vidim prekjuče kako ima karata za berlin i pazarim. i danas amsterdamska prodaja, do mojega, f5 do besvesti, pa neće da mi prevede sa holandskog na engleski, pa mi ne prima karticu, pa zovem banku, oni mi kažu nema dovoljno para, pa idem da uplatim i puknem dok sam se vratila, pa ubace još jedan koncert sutradan, pa ubace još karata za 26. jer je bio prodat, kupim za 26. onda sve ispočetka za 27. tako da score, nije lošo. imam jednu za stajanje za 26, što mi donosi wristband jer sam član kluba i jednu sa sedenje za 27. juna. ah, divota. i jednu za berlin.

dal mi je laknulo? jeste.

kaće juni?! i juli naravski.



so i tried to buy tickets for certain pearl jam europe concerts next year. in pre-sale via 10 club. they crashed some 20 minutes after the start and we all had to go for general sale with the rest of the world which was not easy at all. it was beep! drama. ok, i bought kind of painless one ticket for berlin which i didn't planned really, but for amsterdam which i planned... servers down, then tickets sold, then i manage to find other seats, but i had not enough money on my card, so i went to bank to pay more, queue in the bank, and then i could not get through, online queue, queue... two browsers, several tabs opened, f5, link to that, click to this...

how did i fucken get here?

finally i managed to score two tickets for two amsterdam shows besides one for berlin gig. oh my... well, even this might be totally inappropriate for my age, i totally accept myself. and tickets.

what else is possible for that matter?

photo pearl jam